Monday, December 3, 2012


There is not a moment or day that has gone by that I don't think of you and miss you. I pray that a tomorrow will come and I will awaken to see your furry presence near my side always ready for the love and hugs that would follow any moment you were near. I wonder where you have gone, my Dolbeth. The many questions consume me daily and I hope you are not on your own, and are having fun with other creatures around, and someone there when you search for someone to hold you and give you the attention that I can no longer give you. Everyday that goes by is like a memory and I ask myself do you ever try to remember me? I still feel you by me in my automobile or whenever I see the bright green park where you used to roam. I hope your alright whever you are. If you are still within the realms of my thoughts, or over some telepathic wave I just want you to know that you were my best choice and wherever eternity takes you please know that I still love you so. Often in the dead of night, I hope you hear me call for you as it's not quite right with you not here at all. I ask myself over and over if I made a mistake letting you slip away, it's a constant unaswered question in my head. I then realize it is merely me talking to my heart which feels empty and sad. I want to rejoice and have you close by and I still keep a place for you here. Tonight, once again I stood outside and heard the echo of a train's whistle passing by, it cries nearby and I know that soon it will fade into the distant hills and die. I then send out a message to you, like a ship upon the sea, I am still in distress and only your presence can send the lifeline out to me. I really want to know that your doing fine as I just can't seem to let you go. If that is wrong then I will have no choice but to miss you until I no longer have the energy to do so. Within the realms of my thoughts you will always be present. For the many tears that still fall from my eyes, luckily, they blur my present and for those moments I can feel the invisible ribbon of connection that has yet to be severed by time. Until such time exists and it gets broken apart, my love for you is still very much alive. I only pray that somewhere in the space of divine energy that you will receive it and know that you are truly and overwhelmingly missed. I miss you Dolby!