It occurred to me the other day when asked the question of "What Are You Doing The Rest Of Your Life" that I could not possibly answer with specifics of a definite plan. So much is waiting to be challenged and every day something new is added to the list of life things that take hold of my awareness daily. If I was given an assignment to actually have to put together some sort of outline for the rest of my life, I think I my mind would split into pieces and I would become more of an anxiety freak. Not a trait that I like to admit to but it pretty much sums up how I feel when I want to accomplish any and everything. To cram a full twenty four hours of accomplishments into one day has always seemed to be my daily goal. It is all I can do to stop myself as the clock strikes midnight.
I hate to waste my conscious time by not fulfilling every precious moment that I am awake. While sleep knits up the raveled sleeve of care of most people, my dreams just create new wants and desires that I want to get started on as soon as is possible. The creation of all my ideas definitely started as a child when I recognized that I could dare to dream and watch the realities all unfold as the years progressed. I do recall ever so vividly when my first dream of desire became a reality that is still very present in my life.
I can't seem to find a cognisant moment when I did not have some thought of tomorrow. When things seem overcrowded, over extended and almost overwhelming, I still seem to find a moment to create a new hope. Almost everyday in my field of work I talk with so many people who, if ever asked this same question, would not be able to answer with a clear direct response due to the responsibilities that keep them in a twenty four hour mode and not much is recognized beyond that time period.
It has all been a creation of their own reality choices and there is never enough time to sit down and research the future when so much depends on getting by each day. How could anyone see over the mountain of today's responsibility.
It is difficult in understanding how we all get lost in the present when the real gifts are there for the taking in our future. We all have to keep reminding our self to sit still and listen to the silence that rises over the mountain of the unknown and feel the desires that yearn to be reality.
Whatever you want to do for your life will only happen if you create the effort to move reality into the choice everyday. Never letting up on it and diffusing anyone who dares to take it from you by negative words or actions. If you feel it truly within then let it happen and the results are powerful.
There have been plenty of times when it seemed that life was not playing fair. When the fires and embers would die out I would always realize that I was not playing fair with myself because I did not pay close enough attention to the signs that were there all the time trying to lead me toward a better route than the selfish one that I got lost on. The one thing that always stands out for me is the fact that whenever there is down time I will always find myself searching my mind for something to get working on and not stop till I have completed my desire.
In these days of housing homicides and maniacal monetary depletion's there is enough unrest and disappointment resonating in the air and I have been trying to avoid getting sucked in to the madness. I depend greatly on my imagination to take me to new heights that rise above the craziness that surrounds us all.
So when I ponder the question of "What Am I Doing The Rest Of My Life" I guess I can truly answer that I will take each and every day and pour into it enough hope, desire, fantasy and reality that will transition me into the next day asking the same question .......what am I going to do with the rest of my life here in the present....which always gives way to my future....answers.